Saturday, September 11, 2010

I Miss Her..... :'(

Dear God,


She's married....that's right, Winnie the Pooh is officially Mrs.Six Feet Guy now and I just can't accept the fact that I will have to share her with someone else... It took two whole days for the realization to hit me that she is not my baby sis any more... The fact that I have to share my best friend with someone else irritates and upsets me immensely and my mind is holding a grudge against everyone who plotted this.... I know that I sound like a lunatic, and well....I guess I am a bit of that...but then I just don't like to think that I wouldn't be able to see her as much as I'd want to, talk to her as much as I'd want to and hang out with her as much as I'd want to...coz she'd have to see, talk and hang out with some one else as well.... I had promised that I wouldn't cry and be a good, brave sis but then, I really couldn't help it. After marriage, as soon as I got back home....it hit me that she wasn't home and the torrent began....and it has hardly dried up. It really didn't help much that I called her and heard her sound miserable and lost.... the confident, brave, bold one amongst the two of us sounded like a meek lamb over the phone.... and her tearful voice just gave way to fresh tears rolling down my cheeks.


But then I am glad that she's found someone to share her life with and pray and wish that she enjoys all the beautiful moments of marital bliss. I am glad that I could be there for her marriage and that everything went smooth, in spite of the initial glitch. I do miss her, but I know that she will bring as much happiness and warmth into her new home as she did here, and want to tell her that she's the best sis, the most sensible advisor, the most trustworthy confidant and the most loyal friend anyone can ever have....


All I want to say is that Sis, You Rock!!!


Thank you God, for keeping her save and happy. Also, thank you for bearing with my ranting for all this while. Feelin much much better.


Luv


Me

Thursday, September 2, 2010

A sprained neck and a happy smile

Dear God,


I have ended up with a sprained neck, yet a happy smile. Not that my sprained neck gives me any pleasure...it is really really painful, and the simple task of nodding has become the most painful thing right now. But then I have decided to smile because I sense the end of a toxic friendship, the baggage of which I have been carrying around for some time now. For some time, I had thought that I had found a friend when in reality, it was not even close...And when my mind had actually through a turmoil, sadness and confusion playing in my mind, at times, engulfing me in their dark cloaks, I really didn't know what to do, or whom to turn to. But then, as I told someone today, sometimes, some things happen in life which will prove once again that you are there, somewhere out there, waiting for the right time to interfere and set things right.
So thank  you, God...wherever you are...for helping me get through this tough time.